Finally did something for DVPT today! Stop motion is so cool :]

Anyway, in any case my mum reads this, I'll be very honest about stuff. It's not that I don't want to talk face to face, but every time I tried, it doesn't seem like anyone would really listen. My words would be interpreted wrongly, and I'd be interrupted so often, I can't be bothered to say anymore. That's what happened with Grandma. Even with an apology and all the things I've done in the past, one sentence interpreted wrongly is enough to condemn me.

Why? Seriously, why? Can I not be judged by that one small mistake?

I don't know why the letter addressed to me is not left alone to be opened by me. That aside, thank you for the concern (: 至少我当成是关心。因为很多时候对我说话时都是用责骂的口气，要不就是指责的口气。我对肢体语言又比较敏感，你不觉得是带刺的话，我听了倒觉得很不舒服。指责完可能两天后就忘记，可是那些指责的话和语气我要忘记也望不了，想到就超难过。不知到为什么你就可以这么不在乎自己说的话会不会伤到别人？用解释的我会明白，都已经多大了，不是小孩子。有事可以谈可以讲，在指责下去我只会越来越不想听。真的。

还有，我已经知道自己要的是什么，所以我在尽力了。是，我还是有偷懒，还很迟睡，可是我在认真了好吗。真的很忙，要做工也是想买乐器或是音响之类的电器。真的以为我会把钱都拿去买衣服啊？我看起来真的那么烂吗。至少也相信我多一点，看得起我多一些？都不知道是不是真的了解我。

累累累。已经不想在解释和维护自己的所作所为。如果还是不相信，我也不知到要怎么证明了。无所谓吧。

Fleepy, I'll go to sleep now. Planned to go swimming tomorrow. Need to train my arm muscles so I can hold the flute better. :O

Good night!!